The sky is the limit.

Its sad how i try to give the best i can for the people i care for and and half of them dont give a fuck about me :(. I feel so unwanted and alone that i just want to cry in my room alone for hours. Life is so frustating that way :(.
Today i have decided that i will go far away where i know nobody. Not even a single soul and live my life how i would like it to be. I will live it on my rules and not according to someone who is trying to control me every second because i know there is more to life than this trapped suffocated feeling and i know there ate people out there who actually care for me.
I wont be trapped like this i will live my life according to myself because its my life. When i die i will be the one who will pass away and i dont want to live with regrets or boundaries. The sky is the limit and i will be the own living my life. Sorry for being rude but fuck this world and some of the people living in it. I am aiming for the sky :D

Rain :D

It's weird how a simple thing such as rain can brighten up my whole day. When it starts raining my whole day is Brightened up. Maybe it's the raindrops that fascinate me or maybe it's just the thought of getting wet and washing off everything and being all fresh and stuff. whatever it is I just love it.  

What makes me more happy is jumping around and dancing in the rain. You can just love the sensation of water on your skin and forget about everything else. You can just dance around and not care about what other people feel. You can just forget the world and be who you are.the feeling is just amazing. It's just out of this world.

Mistakes

Whenever i post on blogger its spontanious and i dont double check. And whenever i read my posts i find a million mistakes. :( i kinda feel bad. If blogger didnot allow to edit ur posts later i would be toast. *phew*
(my sincere apologies for all the errors)

With all of this i realised that maybe this is the same reason i get low scores even when i do really good in exams. It made me think really deeply and seriously (not that seriously but i was pretty serious) and i have decided to double check before doing anything. I have been let down by my mistakes alot of times and i have been disappointed just enough its about time i took control and do something about my carelessness :). I need to do something to reach the point i want to. I wont achieve my dreams by just sitting back and doing nothing. And i am open for comments please comment if u find any errors. :D please do comment .

;) :D

These days i have started paying attention to my looks. I think being presentable is more important than being hot or sexy ;).


And this is totally random :D ;)

My dai :)

Dai is a word used to for an elder brother in nepal. This word is casually used by people for men slightly older than them. I too use it pretty often. It shows respect at the same time binds a relationship between the two people and this is how two strangers become almost family.

But whenever i think about the word 'My dai', one person's name pops to my head. And that is my sachin dai :).
People might think it is so because he is my biological brother but the strange part is we are not siblings or related in anyway. We live in totally different places, and we met through twitter :D
I know this might sound lame but we hav not met eachother either. But that is the beauty of this relationship. Without even meeting eachother we hav this instant connection like siblings do. Its almost telepathic. There are times when i hope he comes online and he just pops up in chat with a 'baini'(referred to younger sister in nepali)

I dont knw how or why but its like we were destined to be siblings but ended up in totally different places. The weird fact is that i dont hav a brother because my mum lost her first child. She was 7 months pregnant. She got high fever and lost her first baby. Since it was already 7 mnths they knew the gender, it was a boy. In other words i lost a brother who never even entered this world.
When i started talking to sachin dai it felt like talking to somebody i had known my entire life. If my brother was alive he would be almost the same age as him :) . That makes this relationship a tad bit more magical.
He is just amazing :). Pulls me right back up when i am down inspires me to do stuff and cares for me. He is one of those pillars that is holding me from crashing down to the ground. No matter what other people say i love him dearly and i belive he loves me too.

To my dai
From your baini :) thank you for everything dai

Clueless

Hmm my blog is boring compared to others, but hell with it. Im just clueless. Just have patience people maybe i will come out of my cocoon and turn into a butterfly or i will just be another turtle peeking outside :P
Yes and i like koalas :)

Readers :D

Just found out some people actually read my blog. I was so excited that i actually jumped for a minute or so :) they also commented me on my template so i will change it. Yay readers . #cheers

Dance ? Are you kidding me?

Whenever i watch a dance movie i cant stop fantacizing about becoming a dancer. They are all graceful, confident, beautiful and sexy. And unluckyly i have two left legs. When u see me on the dance floor u will see me moving in full confidence with no actual steps. I seriously cant dance. That is the reason why I joined salsa classes. The classes are great fun but I feel so ackward. Its like my body is not even moving. Maybe continuing these classes will help me but well dont have much time before high school starts :(

Jealous and inspired

Whenever i see a young girl or a boy such as justin beiber, selena gomez, miley cyrus and other stars i get jealous. I wonder what have i done till now with my life. I kinda get dissapointed in myself. But im not the kind to loose hope and give up. I still believe some kind of miracle will happen and i will end up sucessfull and rich, on my own that is. Hope it comes true *fingers crossed*

Rich and famous

Everybody dreams big of being rich and famous. Well so do I. I wanna earn alot of money before i am 30 and do all the crazy rich ass thing anybody could think off.
So why 30 well after 30 i want to join some NGO or even establish one and do some good work for my country, Nepal, and other countries out there that need help.

Cheers to dream

I have finally created a blog of my own. Feels good and I hope I can stay loyal to it and keep posting.
As the name suggests "Cheers to Dreams", this blog is dedicated to people like me, who dare to dream.