My face

I'm going to put on this poker face
Because even I don't want to see my face.
You can't see my sorrow
It's locked up indide my chest.
I will feed myself pain
So that I'm strong enough I again.
I will grow immune to all the horror of the world,
And I get back all the things that I deserve.

SCREAM

LOST IN THIS FAIRY TALE
LOST LIKE THE WIND IN THE AIR
LOST LIKE A MAN IN A CROWD
IS THERE ANY ONE I CAN CALL OUT

I SHOUT THROUGH  THE COVERS
IS ANYONE TRYING TO HEAR ME?
I SCREAM THROUGH THE ROCK AND ROLL
I SCREAM SO LOUD THAT YOU CAN FEEL MY SOUL

THIS DEEP SCAR IN MY HEART
DON'T KNOW IF IT'S USELESS OR ART
MY BRAIN FEELS INSIDE OUT
AND MY SCREAM REALLY DOESN'T COUNT

I'M SO LOST
I NEED TO GET HOME
I'M SEARCHING FOR THE PEOPLE I KNOW
SO LOST SO LOST I'M LOSING MYSELF
SO LOST THAT I NO LONGER ARE FOR THIS WORTHLESS SELF 

CONFUSION

Sometimes random thoughts fly about in my head. Why is the world revolving the earth?, or Why do people live? Why are there other species in the world? or Why do people have different coloured skin?. Similarly the one question that i have been asking myself a lot lately  is, Is there life after death? If there is no life after death then what is there? Do people just roam around the earth? But if they do so, wouldn't it be a little too crowded. If they turn into animals or birds then, are we mistreating our ancestors by giving them a lower place in our lives as animals? Do they re-live as babies? If so then we have lived many previous lives, why don't we remember anything? Why do we have to start over again and go through the hardships we have already been through. Do we actually have to pay for our sins in the past? Do we actually have a better life because of our good doings in the previous life. Is this all really possible? Or am I just confusing myself more and more by thinking more about it. But how can I not be curious? I am just a teenager who wants to learn new things. I would be a disgrace if I didn't have that curiosity in me, or wouldn't I? Why is everything so confusing? Why don't we have a handbook that has answers for everything. Why is everything so complicated once you start thinking about it? WHY? WHY? WHY? 

DARKNESS

Today I feel empty, almost as if my emotions have been raped. Tears want to fall but something is holding it back. I feel sad and depressed but, is that person worth all these emotions? I am torn into shreds yet I still hope that everything is false. My smile is lost but is there anything I can do. Now all i can do is stare into the darkness hoping for some sunlight.